I sometimes think that life would have been so much easier to live if I hadn’t gotten to know the world .
If I didn’t know there were better things in life , I wouldn’t want them . If I didn’t know that some people make a living out of their passion , I wouldn’t hate my job so much . If I didn’t knew that people fell in love . I wouldn’t hate being single .
When I think about it , I realise I never felt this way when I was a kid . I never had a worry in the world and wasn’t ever jealous of anybody . I just want to go back to that version of me . This thought itself drives me crazy – that my younger self was living a better life than me .
So I think I would be much happier if someone from Men In Black , just wiped my memory . If didn’t know what all existed in the world , I would not want it . I would be able to appreciate what all I have . The little things in life . Go back to pre civilisational – need not , want not .
But even if I want I can’t really get my memory wiped can I ? I have got find a way to live with it . Also isn’t it our desires and thinking what makes us human ? Isn’t it our desires which motivate us to work harder ? But at the same time these desires have become a source of misery for me . So I guess I just need to find a middle path . I have to be rational and objectively examine everything and everyone I see on the television and instagram and figure out what I really want . I know a gazillion people have already said this before . But to actually apply it in life is a herculean task .